Sometimes, you get caught up in a moment. And sometimes that moment lasts for a couple of months. You meet someone, and you hit it off amazingly well. You go on a date and it replaces any other "best night of your life" as being THE best night of your life. Fun and perfect, in a way you'll never forget. You hang out some more, and it's always good -- better than good.

Then you have a disastrous week, and don't know what to think. A couple of days of being really sad, and overthinking everything. (It doesn't always help, having the memory that I have! Retains things almost photo-perfect, including things I'd rather not remember quite that well.)

Everything would have been fine if I just hadn't done this [insert stupid action A]. Everything would be as it was if I hadn't started that conversation.

Then you realize about the former, maybe. And about the latter, yes it would be. And that's exactly the problem.

I think I'm done with the part of my life where I regret honesty, when it doesn't work out to what I hoped it would. There's no shame in saying look, if you don't see this happening, then I'm not the girl who will be there when it's good for you, on whatever terms you want. Even when you like that person more than you've liked anyone in years. For lack of a more apt word here, yes, it suuuuuuuuuucks -- but if you can't let yourself go after, be open to, and find what you need... who will?

I'll fully admit that I've been that girl before. It somehow hasn't occurred to me before now that what I'm looking for is just as important, and I shouldn't be afraid to say it for fear of it all crumbling down. Why? I couldn't tell you. I know that when it comes to my non-professional life, the last two years have changed me a lot. This is one of the ways it has, and I'm glad for it.

When I left Ottawa, and moved out here to Silicon Valley, it was the start of going after my goals in life, rather than trying to make other people happy and maintain the status quo. The last two years have been amazing, and have gone by so fast, I can hardly believe it. The last few months -- beginning around December -- have shown me what else I want, and what I need for a balanced life. It's not a secret that I've been seeking relocation to LA. I have family there, I have friends from Ottawa there, I have someone who's been a close friend since high school there, along with her family, and a whole bunch of other friends there. It's a foundation, and a network, and a life. Saying that -- I love the job I've had for the last two years. In a perfect world, I'd transfer it to an office down there. So is it a perfect world? Time will tell.

This week has reminded me of something important -- be true to who you are, and what you want, and don't be afraid to say it, show it, DO it. You won't always like the answer, but those answers can help set you on the right path. As one of my favorite directors back in Canadialand truly believed, "When one door closes, another opens." He was fascinated by watching it in action. Me too. So don't be afraid to shut some doors -- you never know what's behind the one that opens next.